“How I’m Feeling Now” is not a song by Lewis Capaldi, but rather an album by Charli XCX that was released in 2020. The album was created entirely during the COVID-19 pandemic while Charli was in quarantine, and as such, it has a very unique and personal feel to it.
The album’s lyrics are raw and emotional, reflecting Charli’s feelings of isolation and uncertainty during a time of global crisis. Many of the songs deal with themes of loneliness, anxiety, and the struggle to maintain connections with loved ones despite physical distance.
The opening track, “Pink Diamond,” sets the tone for the album with its pulsing beats and lyrics about longing for human connection. “Forever” continues this theme, with Charli singing about wanting to be with someone even when they’re far away.
“Claws” and “I Finally Understand” both explore the complexities of relationships, with the former being a more upbeat, danceable track and the latter a slower, more introspective ballad.
Verse by verse meaning of the song:
In the first verse, the singer asks for forgiveness for being obtuse, which suggests they may not always be easy to understand or communicate with. They also admit that it’s been a while since they’ve told the truth, which could imply that they’ve been hiding their true feelings or thoughts.
In the second verse, the singer expresses their frustration with not having life figured out and being consumed by doubt. They admit that they can make changes but choose not to.
The pre-chorus describes a sense of hopelessness and feeling like they’re barely holding on. The chorus repeats the theme of being unsatisfied with life and feeling trapped inside their own thoughts.
The post-chorus suggests that the singer thought they would be happier with certain circumstances, but they’re still struggling.
In the bridge, the singer admits to being a mess but expresses a determination to eventually get through it.
Biography of the Lewis Capaldi:
Lewis Capaldi is a Scottish singer-songwriter born on October 7, 1996, in Whitburn, West Lothian, Scotland. Capaldi grew up in a musical family, with his father being a singer and his mother a nurse. He began playing guitar at the age of nine and started writing and recording music in his teenage years.
Capaldi gained widespread attention with the release of his debut single “Bruises” in 2017, which was a critical and commercial success. The song received millions of streams and helped him secure a record deal with Virgin EMI Records.
In 2018, Capaldi released his debut EP, “Bloom,” which featured “Bruises” and three other tracks. The EP was well-received and helped establish Capaldi as a rising star in the music industry.
Capaldi’s breakout year came in 2019 with the release of his debut album, “Divinely Uninspired to a Hellish Extent.” The album featured hit singles such as “Someone You Loved” and “Grace,” and debuted at number one on the UK Albums Chart. The album went on to become the best-selling album of the year in the UK, and Capaldi won multiple awards for his work, including two BRIT Awards.
Capaldi’s unique voice, emotional lyrics, and relatable songwriting have earned him a dedicated fanbase and critical acclaim. He has been compared to artists such as Ed Sheeran and Sam Smith for his ability to craft powerful and emotive ballads.
Complete lyrics of the song:
[Verse 1]
Will you forgive me if I’m comin’ off a little bit obtuse?
Well, it’s been a minute now since I have had to tell the truth
I know I can
I won’t
[Verse 2]
Suppose I thought that, by this moment, I would have it figured out
But, instead, I tend to spend my days consumed by seeds of doubt
I know I can
I won’t
[Pre-Chorus]
Oh, darlin’, it goes on and on and on
Always, forever, till I’m barely holdin’ on
End of my tether and I know it won’t be long
It won’t be long till it’s gone
[Chorus]
So here’s to my beautiful life
That seems to leave me so unsatisfied
No sense of self, but self-obsessed
I’m always trapped inside my fuckin’ head
[Post-Chorus]
On and on and on, on and on and on
On and on and on, on and on and on
Said, “Thought I’d be happier somehow
If you were wonderin’ how I’m feelin’ now”
[Verse 3]
I try to tell myself my best days are the ones that lie ahead
But I’m always lookin’ back on things I wish I’d never said
I know I can
I won’t
[Pre-Chorus]
Oh, darlin’, it goes on and on and on
Always, forever, till I’m barely holdin’ on
End of my tether and I know it won’t be long
It won’t be long till it’s gone
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[Chorus]
So here’s to my beautiful life
That seems to leave me so unsatisfied
No sense of self, but self-obsessed
I’m always trapp inside my fuckin’ head
[Post-Chorus]
On and on and on, on and on and on
On and on and on, on and on and on
Said, “Thought I’d be happier somehow
If you were wonderin’ how I’m feelin’ now”
[Bridge]
I won’t lie, I’m a mess, yeah
But I’ll get there
No, I won’t lie, I’m a mess, yeah
But I’ll get there
[Chorus]
So here’s to my beautiful life
That seems to leave me so unsatisfied
No sense of self, but self-obsessed
I’m always trapp inside my fuckin’ head
[Post-Chorus]
On and on and on, on and on and on
On and on and on, on and on and on
Said, “Thought I’d be happier somehow
If you were wonderin’ how I’m feelin’ now”